officially uninspired

I wish I lived by chance.

2010-11-26T21:24:00.000-08:00

I could have taken the chance
to meet anyone that I thought I had
ever believed to be what I wanted
had ever seen as taking my hand

but I didnt take that
and that was that

the plan became nothing more
than a singled minded thought
I pretended to have forgotten
no one could say I lived by chance.

I need to stop thinking.

2010-10-27T20:18:00.000-07:00

I'm a liar i can tell
i know my heart i know
everything to which I fell
don't tell me its not true
(I know you
don't know you)
its who Ive become
a liar in a shell of no. one.
you tell me who I am
but I don't believe anything
that you speak.
I know a liar when I see it
and i see it
when i look in the mirror
that's just who Ive become
a no one
a no one
an everything that you could ever want.
its true.
from me to you
your a liar, and I am too.
we are a friendship
based on nothing
based on nothing
solid
nothing true
nothing real
as me or you
nothing we should
believe
believe me
I'm a bonafide
liar
so you'll always know
that you'll never know
take a chance
I don't dare you, I don't do that
I fear my heart, I fear my wounds

I fear who i am, when I'm with you.
you break me apart so far
I don't know who I am anymore
its so
breaking so heartfelt
to not
feel with your heart.
it tears me apart.
I could have sworn to you
I knew who I was
but I lost that,
thanks to my lying heart that
I've fed I've let
become what I am
and now Ive to get back.
if I cant. ill know.
because its all I can do right now.. I don't even know what I can say
when its not My words coming out.
this isn't me.
i believe it.
do you believe me?
oh please don't.
I'm not too believable.
anymore.

2010-10-04T22:44:00.001-07:00

May the world stop to listen;

critiqued hatred be my mission.

I could speak the road ahead

and lead me past my vision

I could lie a river flowing

and dear fountain ever growing,

be my air I drink

my water I breathe

be my light I speak

my words I see

Shower me with words,

shower me with love

rain on my parade

a rain of air enough

to breathe a final breath

to walk away stone set

to dive into the rainbow

and drown in the sunset

of your reflection

my dearest fountain

of your shimmering glow

of my shimmering end.

liar

2010-09-27T19:27:00.000-07:00

Welcome home my friend,
welcome to the end
i always said I was a liar
but I never said I've lied

I was going to play your heartstrings like an instrument
but honestly,
i must confess
your heart seemed so broken
beyond all repair that I
doubt it can
ever be fixed

liar! liar! dont say alone again
never say/never/
never say alone again
never say never/
never say alone again
(alone)
never say alone again!
(alone)
never say alone again

I was going to play
your heartstrings like an instrument
but honestly,
i must confess
your heart seemed so broken
beyond all repair
that I doubt it can ever be fixed

your heart doesnt matter to me
your heart doesnt matter to me
(you liar) I know!
your heart doesnt matter to me
your heart doesnt matter to me
(you liar) I know

2010-07-25T16:56:00.001-07:00

residing at the top of your chain
now your crying as your finding fame
goes away with the rain
now your dying and your trying to stay
top of your game you had better walk away
before your washed down the drain
you better give it on up

better do what we say
(better give it on up)

youve played the game for days
for years upon the times
but we know your growing aged
no one outlasts their time

dont whittle away,
keep your dignity.
walk with head high,
and dont tread lightly.

youve played the game for days,
for years upon the times
but you know your growing aged
you wont outlast your time

residing at the top of your chain
now your crying as your finding fame
goes away with the rain
now your dying and your trying to stay
top of your game you had better walk away
before your washed down the drain
better give it on up

better do what we say
(better give it on up)

2010-07-25T16:51:00.001-07:00

we may be dead by thursday
but we'll always breathe.
we may be dead by thursday,
we are the angels wings.

we may be dead by thursday,
but we'll always see.
we may be dead by thursday,
we are the angels tears.

what ever happened to heroes?
to morals?
to truth?
what happened to you?

we must rise,
angels bringing light.
we must be the heroes,
be the truth,
it must start with you.

we are the angels tears,
the fears of the fallen.
we are the angels wings,
bringing the king of all.

2010-07-11T14:18:00.000-07:00

I can Take you Down
I can break your mind
If you want to die
I can be your cancer
If you want to know
I can be your answer

You'll break your heart
and then you'll break your eyes
I can break you down
cuz I can break your life
hell, I could be your life
if you want me to
I could be your ruler
I could be you, too

And I am so alive
and I could be your lie
I could be your heart
I coud be your mind
Im the devil
and Im in charge
I know you because
I am your heart.

So give yourself
on up to me
I could be your body
Hell, I could be your bleeding
soul for you
I could be your truth
you know Im not a liar
when it comes to you
you dirty whore.
you liar.

you want proof?
baby I got it.
walking down your hall
last night, I heard you
call him on the phone
tell him you need him
when he arrived
you said he was your first
the next day
you told your friends
he was the worst
youd ever had

they smiled and laughed
but inside they knew
he wasnt your worst
cuz those whores had had him too.

remember,
im the devil
and Im in charge
and I know you
because I am your heart

So give yourself
on up to me
I could be your body
hell I could be your bleeding
soul for you
I could be your truth
you know Im not a liar
when it comes to you.

so dont you see
that you need me?
let me be your heart,
let me be you, baby.

2010-07-01T17:35:00.001-07:00

Hello Mr. Hurricane,
I hear youve come to sweep me away,
well I've got my jade, and I'm ready
Your here to make me sway
with the trees, to and fro
I need you to take me away,Mr. Hurricane

Hello Mr. Hurricane,
I see youve brought a friend
Mr. stormy night, its nice to meet you,
I hope our friendship never ends
I like the lightning, and I love the clouds,
but the dark, I could do without,
Hey there Mr. Hurricane, Youve got me figured out.

Thank you Mr. Hurricane,
for sweeping me right off,
my feet arent on the ground, dont let my toes touch down
Hello Mr Hurricane,
Ive been waiting for a while,
Ive got my umbrella, so Ill float when you drop out.

2010-06-23T11:32:00.001-07:00

Tact, Tact, I dont need tact
it just sets you up for a failure in another
act, week, or call it a day,
its just set you up for a failure in a stronger
way

Tact, tact, I dont need tact
it just sets you up a liar "you really do not need
that!" when, all in fact,
you need to wear it cuz it makes you look less
Tact, Tact, Tact, Tact,

I, have built you up,
in a week you'll realize im just a liar
I, have built you up,
in a week you'll realize im just a liar

Tact, Tact, I dont need tact
Yes dear I love you, i swear that I mean
that, but, I really dont,
I just use tact to get to what I
want

Tact is A liar and an Act
Your a liar, Mr. Tact
Your a liar, Mr. Tact

Tact, Tact, I dont need tact,
it just makes for Liars and broken shattered
hearts, and you dont need that,
But Tact is the drug, Im just the
addict

Believe

2010-06-15T23:30:00.001-07:00

Im sure that you could be
someone that Ive never seen
believe
im sure it could be

believe if you can
the day and the night
the rise and the fall
the wrong and the right

believe if you can
the morals I intone
the ones I believe
That keep you from

belief.
believe it, you could be
but not as long as you follow
this belief in nothing

as it stands,
no matter who you are
you die in days,
and what you are is gone

remembered or not,
you have no point.
a pointless person
a pointless joint
so smoke on
envelop yourself up
your dead in days
and dead to us.

I believed in you
I believed you could be
something I have never seen
something you will never be
So keep it up.
enjoy it while you can.
i should come back tomorrow,
with a knife in hand.

should end it now
seeing as your death is here
should end it now
since you wont believe

but I wont.
because I still believe
I know theres a chance
and I refuse to leave.

2010-04-09T18:22:00.001-07:00

Ill keep my family
thank, you
When it burns away
Were safe with you

Ill keep my family
Keep them away
And when we run in heaven
we'll run the clouds grey
from the dirt on our bare
perfect soles

When it burns down
I run to you
but I have to take
my family too
Whats love without
the ones you love?
im not sure that
kind of love's enough
For where I want to go
For where I plan to be
For joy I want to know
For joy I plan to see

Ill take my family
thank, you
so when it burns away
were safe with you
We may leave the world
leave them in the fire
Sad as that may be
Keep my family alive
Thank, you

And when we run the clouds
We'll run them gray
from the dirt on our bare
perfect soles

Keep my family,
if it pleases you
and if it does not
what's there to do..
so keep my family
im begging you
hope its not to much
for you to do

for where we want to go
for where we plan to be
The face we want to know
The face we plan to see

2010-04-08T22:15:00.001-07:00

Im like the little kid who wants to start a riot
Im like the baby kid who's out to make a fire
Im like the tiny kid who smiles as it brightens,
im like the stupid kid who wants to jump inside it.

you wanna test me?
you sure you do?
Ill jump inside the flame
ill bring you too

Im impervious
to the burning of
your flesh you know I am
your flesh can burn away
mine cant.

riot! Riot in the streets
riot! star started by me
riot! I-I-Ill throw you in
riot! you want to settle this?
Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot!
Riot! Riot! Riot! Riot!

you never let me own it now Im gonna take it
you sure you will oppose you know that I will break you
youve got the chance to give it up run while you still can
Youll never beat me Ill run you into the streets and

riot! Riot in the streets
riot! star started by me
riot! I-I-Ill throw you in
riot! you want to settle this?

Ive ran you out your
your gonna like it
your all alone now
your your in the fire
Youve met the riot
Youve met the riot
Youve met the riot
Youve met the riot

2010-03-24T11:16:00.001-07:00

The air outside I refuse to need

It comes and goes, I dont need to breathe

your the breathe I take in, your only one

in a day your gone, in a day your done.

why should I rely on you?

a one day friend that I cant keep

you can dissapear,

and you cant take me.

Truly, I should rely

On God, on Christ.

Truly, I find it nigh impossible

To even find the time

Truly, I think I could have Him

Truly, I know do.

Truly, you tell me you believe

Truly, I dont believe you.

The same goes for you
I could dissapear
what would happen then?
your left alone in here.

My heart is heavy.
My heart is broken.
Seeing your heart run away
And my heart not chasing.

Forgive me.

2010-03-02T22:55:00.001-08:00

you asked me for my heart
but I swear im not ready to give it up yet
Maybe I could hold on to it
And You could keep a few pieces

Im not ready to abandon ship
To run ashore,to leave all of this
Life that ive built for myself

Im not ready to start a new race
Im not quite finished with this one
and I think Id like to end first

I swear im energetic about
leaving nothing behind
I cant say that i want to go
with unfinished business in this life

And I promised
that Id stick with my heart forever
so you cant take it yet
if it cant leave this place here
I cant go anywhere
I wont run away

Salt my open wounds
I beg of you. My heart wont leave yet
and I wont leave it
Maybe you could stick around?

Stay
Just one more day is not
what I could promise
Cuz I cant promise anything

Girl I beg of you
Dont take this wrong but im not sure..
You cant walk away from this
but You cant hold on steadfast

I swear Im energetic about
Leaving nothing behind
I cant say that I want to go
With unfinshed business in this life

And I promised
That id stay with my heart forever
so you cant take it yet
if it cant leave this place here
I cant go anywhere
I wont run away

I promised myself
And My hearts on a rope connected to my hopes
you play my heartstrings like a harp sings
Just dont break the ropes

And I promised
That Id stay with my heart forever
so you cant take it yet
If it cant leave this place here
I cant go anywhere
I wont run away

2010-02-14T23:19:00.000-08:00

If Every time I thought of you,
I had to hold my breath,
Id surely suffocate.

And how better a life
would that one be,
Than to have to live a fate

Without you here,
next to me,
for every breath I take?

Id die to live a life with you,
all else would mean death;
What more can I say?

2010-02-08T13:20:00.001-08:00

Quick access
quickly digress
Quick entrance
Quicker exit

Fast words
for a slow speaker
Troubled much?
or are you in the making
for such
a change and a new day
different breath different way
you change me
new strategy

I hate to see you go
but love to see me smile
im sad your all alone
but im happy for a while

Fast love
for a slug.
slime your way
down to hell
if thats your path
then walk it well
burn away
burn burn today
back down from earth
where the ashes lay

quick access
quickly digress
quick entrance
quicker exit

fast life
for a friend
you stayed with me
time after time
then you left
me alone to die
i picked me up
you pushed me down
i lay alone
you came around

It sucks to see you walk away
im not quite sure of what to say
i hate to see you go
but I love to fake a smile
im sad your all alone
i was happy for a while

That went well
I think it didnt
you off to nowhere
me off to nothing

2010-02-01T20:30:00.000-08:00

Sink or Swim,
dont hold me down
you stole my breath
dont let me drown

im sinking now
just pull me out
suffocation
doesnt sound

so musical.

speaking of music
you healed my heart no longer bruised
nothing is real, and I can prove it.
your too good to be true; see? I proved it.

I told you so.

Im like the tide
first high, then low
yes my emotions
ebb and flow
will this affect you
heavens no
my love for you's
deeper than oceans.

speaking of water,
youve got to let me scream
let me tell you,
my loves so pristine.

Quick Question.

2010-01-18T00:07:00.001-08:00

click! smile?

2009-12-13T22:59:00.000-08:00

its a sad sad day
mixed with happiness
dont you hate those subtle mixtures
that joyfully depress?

its a sad sad day
that makes me smile inside
the most true of all smiles
even if its barely alive

it walks, it talks,
it breathes and it lives
it stops, its gone
my smiles a wished
upon star thats floating away
oh please do not go;
oh please, wont you stay?
your holding on
your making it through
your breath may be short
but your breath still is true

up and down
around and around
through and through
from me to you
my smile is fickle
it comes and it goes
it refuses to stay
it cannot be owned

but it seems to stay
growing larger or smaller
depends on the day
growing shorter or taller

at least your smile
is always shining bright
but dear friend i fear,
ive darkened its shine

at least her smile
lasts around me and you
my dear friend I fear,
I broke her smile in two.

did I ruin what I set out to build?
did I break what I set out to make?
did I kill what I set out to birth?
no.
I built what I wanted to break.

Dont get me wrong,
your smiles I wanted to grow;
but I placed in myself
some feeling I wish I didnt know.

and thats why my smile
is so so weak.
i hate meddling, ive just found out.
its my fault our smiles might break.

2009-12-13T00:16:00.001-08:00

where are you?

where did you go.

I called and I screamed,

but I think you let me go.

You say youve been there,

guiding me through

you say heaven is better,

that its colored a perfect hue;

but if nothing gets better,

than whats the point in this

Oh Ive looked, and Ive seen,

theres no such thing as perfect.

So where did you go?

what am I supposed to believe

you gave me a life,

thats not worthy to recieve.

so where are you?

where did you go

ive called and ive screamed,

but im afraid youve let me go

shaky, unfinished, unrefined, i like it.

2009-12-07T23:24:00.001-08:00

things change, they come and they go. hearts break, they mend then are broke.
eyes see, then stop in the dark,
and lies start, just fueled by a spark.

Hearts break, people laugh
cakes bake, fat cats,
broken dreams, real skies
mended seams, dead eyes.

its just life. its the way it is
the broken shows the fixed,
then breaks the good next.
nothing stays the same, life will always change
eyes will always cry, beach sand will always bake

whos to complain, whos to accept
whose to allow, who here's adept?
who here can change, who here can take it
who here will fail, who here wont make it?

what words will we say when we come against life
what words will we feel when we scream its not right
what words will we hear when we finally find
what words we will hear at the end of our time

i cant criticize, im alive after all
I can tell lies, they cant break my fall
i can speak truth, scream it in the streets,
then live opposite, live a life of deceit

its up to me I suppose, what a bad way to go
im on of the best, yet I choose not to show
i fear for the worst, at least they show the world
why is it the scum have a stand, while I break and I burst?

why is love ever fleeting, why is it right in my grasp
why cant I reach out and take it, how come I still laugh?

why am I alive, why do I smile
it all comes down to, life is worthwhile.

Brightside?

2009-12-01T22:39:00.000-08:00

Always look at the brightside; you'll find your eyes like it more.

In the darkness, ones eyes cannot see through the thickness that surrounds them. They are lost, alone, afraid, and useless. When we dwell on whats going bad in life, remembering the good but forsaking it for the depression we always seem to hope for, we become blind as ones eyes in complete darkness.

In the light, the good of life, our eyes can see. They may not know their exact destination, but they can see the possibilities. They are not alone, as they can see the Guide. They may be afraid, but they have the comfort of being able to see the danger before it arrives; and if they do not see it approach, they can better fight the danger when they can see their sword. They are not useless; in fact, they lead they way.

Why not look at the brightside?

2009-11-27T01:45:00.000-08:00

I may seem officially uninspired,
and thus seem purposeless.
but truth be told, Im far from that.
my purpose surpassed the masses.

my purpose it seems,
rises to obscene levels
obscenity in its greatest peak
unseen as its beautiful trestles

that obscene little mountain
full of snow and ice
the rocks we look past,
viewed as troubles in life

turn out greater
than the beauty we see
for without the rocks
no mountain would there be.