click! smile?

its a sad sad day
mixed with happiness
dont you hate those subtle mixtures
that joyfully depress?

its a sad sad day
that makes me smile inside
the most true of all smiles
even if its barely alive

it walks, it talks,
it breathes and it lives
it stops, its gone
my smiles a wished
upon star thats floating away
oh please do not go;
oh please, wont you stay?
your holding on
your making it through
your breath may be short
but your breath still is true

up and down
around and around
through and through
from me to you
my smile is fickle
it comes and it goes
it refuses to stay
it cannot be owned

but it seems to stay
growing larger or smaller
depends on the day
growing shorter or taller

at least your smile
is always shining bright
but dear friend i fear,
ive darkened its shine

at least her smile
lasts around me and you
my dear friend I fear,
I broke her smile in two.

did I ruin what I set out to build?
did I break what I set out to make?
did I kill what I set out to birth?
no.
I built what I wanted to break.

Dont get me wrong,
your smiles I wanted to grow;
but I placed in myself
some feeling I wish I didnt know.

and thats why my smile
is so so weak.
i hate meddling, ive just found out.
its my fault our smiles might break.